“Don’t you know that if you’re a Christian, you are able to be healed?” an acquaintance suggested on a day I was particularly struggling to walk. Okay… seriously no answer. My first inclination was to be mad, offended, defeated, somewhere in that realm of emotional impassability. But I took a moment to think, and my…Read more
My Take on My Journey
Several people throughout the last few weeks have asked me to share my story. And almost every time I do, they tell me I need to share it with more people. Ehhh that’s one of the reasons I am writing my blog, right? I wanted to put on makeup and get all dressed up for…Read more
Grief
Grief was the strongest opponent I’ve ever faced. It stood undaunted in the midst of great circumstance. After finally getting ready and picking up my weapon, I just didn’t know how to wield it. It took me months before I figured how to aim well enough to every once in a while hit my challenge…Read more
Allow Yourself Those Days
Sundays It’s crucial to me that I insist to myself that I need a spiritual reset. Thinking back to my high school chemistry class where there was this one button on the digital scale that us students were “not to touch under any circumstance.” And inevitably, a classmate decided to intentionally touch the button labeled…Read more
The “Doing Fine” Syndrome
I hate how the usual greeting of “How are you? Good? Me too!” gets thrown around so casually. To me, the question just gives me yet another chance to mask how I am actually doing. Too many “I’m doing fine” lies, and I have realized that I start to convince myself to believe the façade…Read more
Love Isn’t A Feeling
“I finally get it!” one of my friends exclaims as we say goodnight at the front of my dorm building. “When you threw your first ‘I love you’ over your shoulder back when I first met you, I was really confused. I had no idea what to say in return.” And it was true. The…Read more
Summer Morning Routine
Pain. The first word of the day shoots through my mind. I take a deep breath and open my eyes. My phone screen reads 5:48am, and light is just starting to dance off the leaves of the tree I can see out my window. I close my eyes again and concentrate on slowing my heartbeat….Read more
The Importance of the Sabbath
The Importance of The Sabbath Tonight, my host family and I were enjoying random conversations over dinner, talking over each other when necessary and frequently interrupting each other. At one point in the evening, the family friend who had joined us for the evening said something that I had heard before, “It’s weird, you know……Read more
More Than Faces
Before I showed up to camp, the kids that I was going to be in charge of were just numbers on a page. After the first week, they were no longer just numbers; they were faces of children, laughing and crying about all of the craziest things. And now, now they’re neither numbers nor faces….Read more
Introduction
I am a student at Liberty University who has struggled with an undiagnosed autoimmune disease since my sophomore year in high school. Blood draws, doctor visits, and medical testing was something that felt very normal since the age of fifteen. I am very thankful that lots of what I have faced have been relatively minor…Read more